Once again I have neglected my dA account for several months and I return to the tune of 3,849 deviations to catch up on. But I think the real question at this point is, do I care? It isn't that I no longer care about the artists I admire but rather do I care to catch up? I mean, it would take me quite some time to do just that. Heaven forbid I go look at my Google Reader account which has been neglected even longer.

I think it really comes down to the question of what is really important to me now. I believe everyone asks this question of themselves constantly throughout life. "What matters to me? How should I spend my time? Who should I spend it with?" It's really frustrating. Perhaps more frustrating is that with this minor dilemma a hole in my heart, a void in my soul has formed and it demands being filled. ... ... I don't know what to fill it with. Is my heart desiring companionship? Do I fill it with more video games? What about returning to reading? Or how about reconnecting with my church? (I'm not sure about that last one...)

It's all very frustrating and has been rather distracting. Perhaps this shouldn't surprise me though as I just finished another semester of university. In fact, I only have one year left. Come next May, I'll have an even bigger problem: where do I get work so that I can pay my freaking school loans? Maybe I'm just being insane and freaking out over something I shouldn't worry about.

Perhaps I should go to bed as it is 2am and I can't stop yawning...